Red

We don't know how you're spending all of your days when love isn't here.

I can't wait to leave this place. School has finally broken the very last straw. If I could leave tomorrow and start my life afresh somewhere new, I would be on the first plane out. I found myself looking for jobs yesterday and I'm not even done with my degree yet. I hold no stock in the notion that everything will be perfect in this new place. More likely than not it will open the door to some fresh hell, but it will be somewhere else, some place else with new people and things to loathe.

My time on the outside is over...

Like the Sea

First it takes you high, then it takes you under

I just hated today. It was almost as if last year had returned to rear its ugly head. I don't like that feeling, as if the darkness could just reach up and take me over. I refuse to feel like that ever again. This year needs to end...NOW. I was so high first semester and now its trying to beat me low....almost as low as I was before. I will NEVER feel like that again. No matter what happens.

Sidenote: Feeling sick again. I haven't felt well at this semester and its most likely something in my intestines, probably my appendix or spleen since its coming from those areas. I have a doctors appointment for when I get back home. My mom's worried, but at this point I can't even do that. Serious or not, it is what it is. I have go to live the life that I have got.

Additional note: One of my friends is a damn fool if he thinks I'm gonna hook up with him. Ever. He can put that out his mind now, the ho.